Goodbyes

As people, we are akin to complaining. We complain about the toxicity we choose in our everyday lives either subconsciously or consciously. Be it familiarity or fears of the unknown we choose to remain in situations that cause us pain because choosing it is easier than saying goodbye. Goodbye is uncomfortable, goodbye isn’t soothing. Goodbye brings difficult uncertainties. It brings anxiety. We tell ourselves we are safer in staying. But are we really?

Closing a chapter often means more free time on our hands. That free time creates room in our lives to be more intentional. Intentional on how we want to live our lives. What to prioritize? What do we hope to fulfill? I was afraid of saying goodbye for a long time. I thought that was it for me, I chose this right? I chose the person that led me to endure so much pain. My sense of self was gone, I didn’t know who I was. I became someone I couldn’t recognize. In that reality there was no room to cultivate a better future, or to grow. Because I chose goodbye now the possibilities are endless. In a way now, I can appreciate goodbyes a lot more.